I am not a star, nor am I the moon

I am a little girl, small and insecure

I am never satisfied with anything

I am restless, always looking for something new

Every Teardrop is a Waterfall

God damn it, I don't know what I'm doing with my life.

I'm depressed.

But I don't really know why.

Sometimes, I wish I have some weird reason why I am this way and it's really confusing why I could be so depressed when I have everything I could ever need.

I am surrounded with people\\

But sometimes I think they don't care about me

And I understand,

I understand how they could be so caught up in their own lives.

I just wish I could feel genuine happiness.

What does it really feel?

summer's on its deathbed

more from here.

just dilly dallying around two weeks before summer ends. A small part of me is really excited for school but I know when the first week ends, I'll be in my personal hellhole again.

I really should change my outlook in life now that I'm in senior year.

déteste la vie

There's so much hate in my life right now. Maybe it's because of the weather, or my failed life as a novelist (jk wat), blogger, person, etc. I don't know. Gaah.

It's just weird.

The Castle's under siege.

My mediocre photography.

Well hello. The Royal wedding is occurring right now.

Not that it's that big of an impact to my life but I love everything British, you know. I would love to go to England someday. Actually, no, I will go to England someday.

And I used to have a crush on Prince William when I was in 5th (or was it 6th?) grade.

And Kate is just an admirable person altogether.

I mean, the main thing that added up to my admiration to England is probably their rich history, which I came to know when we studied it this year in my AP class.

And the places are just heavenly, and not to mention the merchandise. Haha.

I'm babbling but I must get on with my life.

Au revoir!

Trade Mistakes

Holly Golightly, independent heiress.

And I do wish I could be just like her sometimes, no my bad, all the time.

Let this be a proof that I made this blog post on a summer night of April 25, 2011 with a heavy heart because of being subtly rejected online.

I have come here to find solace from the disappointing bout that is my life.

Starting up has always been a difficult stage so here I am babbling about it instead of actually going down to the actual function of my introduction. 

Listening to some sensible music is where I also find comfort in self-depressing times like this. Oasis, Fall Out Boy, The Beatles, etc.

My blog is shitty. I have no friends to mingle with, because all of them are in their summer vacations or are too lazy to hang about with. I am suffering from low self-image issues. I want a lot of things to happen in my life that I can't start up with - and that adds up to my depression.

Nothing much has happened to my life since the start of summer vacations and I may sooner be faced with the fact that this summer has been nothing but me in a lazy haze, lying around and pigging out. 

Every summer, I promise myself that I will do something new and not just sit around and get myself 10 pounds heavier again, but every summer, again & again, that is what happens. Maybe I should figure myself out and think about what I really want, in the choices of

• Trying something new. Discover what I'm really good at.
• Just sit around because that's the easy way in
• Go on an adventure. 
• Be like Matilda (Roald Dahl)- only like nearly a decade older
• Please just excuse all this for bad humor or something else worth classifying to.